This one is for you....

Jynx me something crazy
Thinking an event through
Then I'm as smooth as the skin
Rolls across the small of your back
It's too bad it's not my style
If you need me
I'm out and on the parkway
Patient and waiting for headlights
Dressed in a fashion that's fitting to the
Inconsistencies of my moods

It's times like these where silence means everything
And no one is to know about this
It's times like these where silence means everything
And no one is to know about this

It's a campaign of distraction
And revisionist history, oh

It's a shame I don't think that they'll notice
(It's a shame, I don't think that they'll notice)
It's a shame I doubt they even care
(It's a shame I doubt they even care)
No one is to know about this

It's a shame I don't think that they'll notice
(It's a shame, I don't think that they'll notice)
It's a shame I doubt they even care
(It's a shame I doubt they even care)
Don't let me down

But whatever I have [been] gettin' myself into
Lately has been slicing inches from my waist
It's my face vs. the bottle
(And thank god you weren't there...)
And that's how bad could this hurt
.. against I won't feel a thing
(And thank god you weren't there...)
I tell you all about [it]
It's just not working out
(...to watch me hit bottom)
Not working out

It's a campaign of distraction
And revisionist history, oh

It's a shame I don't think that they'll notice
(It's a shame, I don't think that they'll notice)
It's a shame I doubt they even care
(It's a shame I doubt they even care)
No one is to know about this

It's a shame I don't think that they'll notice
(It's a shame, I don't think that they'll notice)
It's a shame I doubt they even care
(It's a shame I doubt they even care)
No one has to know about this
Don't let me down

This is why ..
We were taught so much better than this
We were taught so much better than this

This is what living like this does
This is what living like this does
This is what living like this does
This is what living like this does
This is what living like this does
This is what living like this does
This is what living like this does
This is what living like this does
This is what living like this does



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I <3 TBS.

They got the lyrics perfect... down to every single word.

I took the E-train home to my new apartment on the Green Line today.

I guess the letter E is the letter of the week.

Today's letter is the letter 'E' kids....

sometimes we put walls up not to keep people out,
but to see who cares enough to break them down...

Expectations.

either my assumptions are right,
and your expectations of me are too high...

or my paranoia is getting the best of me again,
and it's me who expects too much of you,
it's me who expects too much of your expectations,
it's me who expects too much of myself.

i was always taught to expect the best.

Emotions.

when did i get so emo again?
i guess once emo, always emo...

maybe it's the music i listen to.
i rediscovered Anberlin on my iPod this morning.

i love rediscovering music.

Evidence.

i can't seem to find it,
but it must exist somewhere.

im always looking for evidence.
evidence that im doing it right.

work.
dance.
love.
life.

....'it'.

whatever 'it' may be.

i just want some sort of proof that im doing it right.




sometimes we put walls up not to keep people out,
but to see who cares enough to break them down...




Today's letter is the letter 'E' kids.

...and I'm running on Empty

Meet me at the icecream truck...

So here's to Summer 2010, the 'epic' summer of change.

I only have two more weeks left until I officially declare summer to be over. (Basically, once I'm moved into my new place and settled and such.)

It's crazy.

I can't really believe how much has happened this summer, and how much I've loved it all; New Friendships, New Outlooks, New Lifestyle Changes... :D

Though, I don't want the changes to end with the summer. I hope to stay on this route I'm on, because right now I love it.

On another note - This weekend was a blast! Loved every moment of it. Tho, it was lacking in the dance department. I def miss dance.

LOL, pls tell me why I find this hilarious... tho slightly inappropriate for YouTube:



Meet me at the ice cream truck...
...I'll buy you an ice cream.

(and that's all I'll say about that.)

Anyways...



Take Care amigos and amigas.

'Cosmic Love' - Florence and the Machine

I haven't updated in two weeks, because I really don't know what to say.

Life is decent.
Exceptional at times.

I've really been thinking a lot about those I care about, those I miss and wish I had more time to see, and those who I'm slowly forgetting.

Forgetting is such an interesting phenomenon.
It sucks, yet it really helps you filter out whats important to you.

..which I think I've slowly been figuring out more and more.

Now if only I could figure you out....




If you can wait til I get home...
...then I swear we can make this last.

'whataya want from me' - adam lambert

work.

work dance.

work dance party.

work dance party beaslut.

work dance party love?

work dance party love

live.





ps. happy one month of no meat. i'm a vegetarian now btdubs... the urbandictionary definition of pescatarian got to me.

listen to the thunder.

today is a winding road,
that's taking me to places
that I didn't want to go.

today in the blink of an eye
i'm holding on to something
and do not know why...

i tried...

i tried to read between the lines
i tried to look in your eyes
i want a simple explanation
for what I'm feeling inside.

i gotta find a way out

maybe there's a way out.....

hmmm.

lookin' for love in all the wrong places,
lookin' for love in all the wrong faces,
lookin' for love...

hmmm.

maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano....

a day for independence...

independence.

a state in which one does not require others to form opinions or for guidance in conduct.

synonyms: see FREE.

i feel like that is the theme for the summer of 2010.

by the end of summer, no longer am i dependent. and it's exciting....



live, love, and dance.