It's Summer. Finally.

So since my last post, life kicked into full-gear for quite some time. The main highlights being:

LA/SFO Trip to see the siblings - Kamo, Ayaboe, and Lynne

5.18 @ Myrtle Beach

'CONcept Artists'

Twenty-three. -_-



It's interesting, because I feel like I've drastically increased the amount of time I spend with the people I care about, and the passion I care about (dance) - but have been struggling to balance all of that with work. Though, I have survived thus far - and World Of Dance is over, and no more significant trips out of Boston until July.

I need to buckle down in June - perhaps tone down the social Jason, def.

Now how to cheaply get ahold of those GMAT books. *sigh*

Don't lose who you are...

Sometimes I get so caught up in life, and the day-to-day... that I forget the bigger picture, the long-term goals aspirations expectations I have for myself.

I get distracted by things and people who are unimportant or insignificant in my life, left accepting the status quo. I can do better than the status quo. I know I can do better. I can exceed all expectations I have for myself - as high as they may be. I just need to refocus, aim for the stars... and earn my seat among the constellations.

In the next five years, I hope to accomplish all that I accomplished in the past five and more. I will get into an MD/MBA program... I will grow as a dancer... a professional...

I will grow as a human being.

I will; Watch me.

(Inspirational Links of the Week - 'How It Ends' SYTYCD and 'Who You Are' - Jessie J)

March Forward...

After three weeks of binge clubbing, tons of sushi, new clothing, and numerous rebounds... I realize that indulgence is only a temporary fix to one's problems.

It suddenly hit me this past weekend that - although I thought I was having the best post-'you' recovery ever - I was just ignoring the root issue, the cause of my unhappiness all together.

I don't know if it was the Adele binge, or the TEDTalks marathons in-front of my computer screen... or this 60 Minutes special I just watched...

However, somehow or another, I came to conclusion at some point that life isn't just absurdly complicated, but it's also extremely f%#@ed up.

More importantly, that's ok!

We just have to roll with the punches, and 'accept the good'. (Juandi, I miss you!)

February was an awesome month, full of fun and crazy... and now for a month of focus and continued personal development.



In the words of Ovid - via Celine Yang :

Perfer et obdura, dolor hic tibi proderit olim.
Be patient and tough; someday this pain will be useful to you.

Happy Valentine's Day...

Understand why..
See it's burning me to hold onto this
I know this is something I gotta do
But that don't mean I want to
What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you I just
I feel like this is coming to an end
And its better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn..

It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's coming from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think ya gonna change ya
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
Plus there's so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn


When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cause the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn...

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
You know that it was through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn...

'Daydreamer' - Adele

I am a daydreamer... always aspiring... rarely appeased... disheartened by my lack of excellence...

This is true in most aspects of my life: my career, my dancing, my relationships...

The past month of work + ABDC tryouts + consistent wandering eyes has made me realize that I have no idea what I want.

Actually no, that is false.

I want everything.

Though it seems as though I will never be satisfied, and will forever remain just a daydreamer... at least until I find that one thing that makes me forget about everything else... that one career, hobby, individual that makes everything else seem unimportant.

Le Sigh. Keone and Mariel, this is most beautifully staged dance I've ever seen.

Breathtaking.

(PS. So much <3love<3 to Potter7.)

The Top Ten of Twenty-Ten

10. An Awesome Last Semester at MIT:

Graduation was by far the most bitterSWEET event of 2010. But it was time to move on a new phase of life, just in time for a new decade.



9. Trips! - Turkey, Greece, Mexico. I LOVE traveling, and hope to get to travel as much in 2011!

8. A Summer of Dance, Fun, and (re-)New(-ed) Friendships. Summer really helped me get a grasp for life in Boston post-MIT. It was awesome to let loose a little before settling down into 'adult life'. Everytime I look at the pictures from this summer, I smile. It was sooo epic. <3



7. MY FIRST APARTMENT. I <3 it! Right in the heart of Boston the location is PERFECT. I have to say that I made a good decision to live with the N*****-Be-Livin crew in The Greenhouse. - as the roommates refer to it.

6. 2010 Firsts: Skydiving! Tattoo! Laugh, Love, Live, Dance. Forever

5. (Pesca/Vege)-tarianism.... lol... who would have ever thought?!... but I think this diet is for the best!... I'd be so FAT if I kept my former diet definitely. Now to start exercising.

4. Arthur D. Little . ADL has been a quick learning experience into the realm of consulting. Regardless of how long I stay with the company, I have learned to love my office, the people in it, and the industry itself. ADL was a good choice for entering into the world of business, and I'm thankful to have made the decision to do so.

3. Thanksgiving in Manhattan! Family. Friends. NYC! It was one of the best Thanksgivings I can remember, no lie.

2. NYE on South Beach! Usher concert, Heat game, Shopping, Dining, and Pretty People! Miami is my CITY! Thank you J.Zhou.

1. Oh Na Na...


'...I really wanna see if you can go a long time with guy like me...'

2011 RESOLUTION:

Continue Improving + Striving for more!

-Gym
-Dance
-Budget
-Move to MIAMI!

'I wanna run with the wild horses....'

I took a 'Me'-day today.

It felt amazing. =]

I feel like I'm finally able to take the lead in my new life, after months of trying to hang on to the reins in this crazy horse race.

It's funny tho. As soon as I begin to settle, I immediately begin to look to the future. One can never stop improving.

Who knows where I will be in a year? (Boston, Miami, elsewhere?)

Who knows what I will be doing? (Consulting, Applying to grad school?)

But I do know... I look back over 2011 as I look back over 2010 today, and stand proud of all that I have done and accomplished over those 365.25 days.



'Wild horses I wanna be like you;
Throwing caution to the wind, I'll run free too.'

ps. Saw Dashboard Confessional on Saturday. If only I had the voice of Chris Carrabba. If only.