beautifully. imperfect.

...speechless...

five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes...

Today is my one year with ADL.

Ironic, because as I left the office at 12:10AM last night - I didn't even realize that surviving until midnight warranted the need for much celebration and reflection.

Much has changed/happened in my life over the past 365 days. But definitely for the better.

I feel like a new person almost... but I don't want this to stop my progress in the least.

I tend to always let nostalgia get the best of me, dwelling in memories of "the good ole' days" far, far too regularly.

I read a scripture on Sunday that reminded me that the best days of my life are yet to come, and that I must continue to remind myself of that... even if I have to write it on a post-it note and hang it from my computer monitor at work.


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In other news : Summer '11 has been much different than Summer '10... but I have loved every moment of it so far. If only Boston were always like this.

ps. If the US economy defaults next week, this may very well be my last blog post before I move to Japan.

"I Was Here" - Beyonce

Beautiful:



The past two weeks have been like therapy for my soul.

Last night, I was probably the happiest I've been all summer - and it was amazing.

Summer 2011, you are full of surprises. I'm excited to see what else you have in store for me. :)



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"I just want them to know,
That I gave my all, did my best,
Brought someone to happiness,
Left this world a little better just because...

I was here..."


Cheers, I'll drink to that. :)

It's Summer. Finally.

So since my last post, life kicked into full-gear for quite some time. The main highlights being:

LA/SFO Trip to see the siblings - Kamo, Ayaboe, and Lynne

5.18 @ Myrtle Beach

'CONcept Artists'

Twenty-three. -_-



It's interesting, because I feel like I've drastically increased the amount of time I spend with the people I care about, and the passion I care about (dance) - but have been struggling to balance all of that with work. Though, I have survived thus far - and World Of Dance is over, and no more significant trips out of Boston until July.

I need to buckle down in June - perhaps tone down the social Jason, def.

Now how to cheaply get ahold of those GMAT books. *sigh*

Don't lose who you are...

Sometimes I get so caught up in life, and the day-to-day... that I forget the bigger picture, the long-term goals aspirations expectations I have for myself.

I get distracted by things and people who are unimportant or insignificant in my life, left accepting the status quo. I can do better than the status quo. I know I can do better. I can exceed all expectations I have for myself - as high as they may be. I just need to refocus, aim for the stars... and earn my seat among the constellations.

In the next five years, I hope to accomplish all that I accomplished in the past five and more. I will get into an MD/MBA program... I will grow as a dancer... a professional...

I will grow as a human being.

I will; Watch me.

(Inspirational Links of the Week - 'How It Ends' SYTYCD and 'Who You Are' - Jessie J)

March Forward...

After three weeks of binge clubbing, tons of sushi, new clothing, and numerous rebounds... I realize that indulgence is only a temporary fix to one's problems.

It suddenly hit me this past weekend that - although I thought I was having the best post-'you' recovery ever - I was just ignoring the root issue, the cause of my unhappiness all together.

I don't know if it was the Adele binge, or the TEDTalks marathons in-front of my computer screen... or this 60 Minutes special I just watched...

However, somehow or another, I came to conclusion at some point that life isn't just absurdly complicated, but it's also extremely f%#@ed up.

More importantly, that's ok!

We just have to roll with the punches, and 'accept the good'. (Juandi, I miss you!)

February was an awesome month, full of fun and crazy... and now for a month of focus and continued personal development.



In the words of Ovid - via Celine Yang :

Perfer et obdura, dolor hic tibi proderit olim.
Be patient and tough; someday this pain will be useful to you.

Happy Valentine's Day...

Understand why..
See it's burning me to hold onto this
I know this is something I gotta do
But that don't mean I want to
What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you I just
I feel like this is coming to an end
And its better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn..

It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's coming from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think ya gonna change ya
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
Plus there's so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn


When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cause the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn...

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
You know that it was through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn...